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23 February 2007 @ 09:14 pm
Convocation 2007 III: Crow Is With Me  
There is something I just remembered. We did a meditative journey in Chris Penczak's class today. I have done enough breathwork that I easily slipped into a very deep trance. As soon as the actual trancing began, I found that before me was a huge crow, vastly large than myself, with a bright light behind it, causing the shadow of its outstretched wings to fall upon me, casting me in shadow.

The crow descended upon me, and as so often happens in my trancwork, it sank into me, and became me. I transformed into a black, half-human/half-crow being, and remained that way until the trance was finished.

I find this significant, because this always happens when I do trancework without journeying to my Astral Temple. When I am there, I am myself, albeit often dressed in something fancy. But whenever I leave the Temple, Crow is always immediately there. I am not exactly sure why. Maybe because my Temple is Hekate's domain (and to a lesser extent, Freja's), and Crow does not want to intrude? Or perhaps he does not need to intrude, because he knows I am in good hands?

In any case it is a good feeling to have my spirit guide there with me. I think I should do more non-Temple trancing, so that I can spend more time with Crow.
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Danielle: Gunslingersubrosa_florens on February 25th, 2007 10:16 pm (UTC)
You know something that struck me yesterday? I was thinking about my work with Crow, and every time he comes to guide me, he becomes a part of me, and I transform in a half-human/half-crow being. Every time. He is never there as a separate entity, and I am never truly human, at least that is never my embodiment.

As a Fur, what are your thoughts on that? I ask because obviously you are a much more conversant and emotionally grounded in the phenomena of animal transformation. I do not mean to suggest that I am a closet Fur, because I honestly do not believe that is it.

I suspect that it is simply because my personal take on Divinity is that it is an integral part of us, and we are an integral part of it. That there is no separation of people (or animals, plants, inanimate objects, etc...) and the Divine. My practice is filled with symbols of union like that such as Hekate telling me I am her, and she is me. In me, of me, about me at all times.

However, I have learned to look for other viewpoints on things, because sometimes I learn things I never would have otherwise grasped on my own. So do you have any thoughts on that?
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Danielle: confidentsubrosa_florens on February 27th, 2007 01:41 am (UTC)
It is a different experience for me. In your case it sounds like an awakening, where as for me it is a union. Again, I suspect that is because of my own particular world-view. Thanks for sharing!!!

One of the things that Chris Penczak often points out is that the Neo-Pagan community does not share a common set of beliefs, but rather a common set of practices. It is precisely our differences in belief and experience that brings us together and makes us strong.